Keeping it Real

Nikki McClure poster

 I have been reading some blog posts that resonate loudly in my heart from Julia, Erin,  and Stephanie. If you have time this weekend, go read them. They are starting a bit of a mad mama liberation.

I am a mama to six, a sister to six, daughter to two and wife to my one and only. 

We are a large family that is not religious.
We are non-vaxers.
We buy organic as much as our budget allows.
I make my own homemade bread and I refuse to buy rGBH milk.
I believe in a woman's ability to birth naturally. I have breastfed every one of my daughters.
We also eat at the dinner table as a family almost every night.

 Yes, there is the occasional pizza and fries night in front of the television. 

 I celebrate those nights! They are every bit as good. 

Take it or leave it. This is who we are. 
 

The drumbeat of "I Am Enough" is something I struggle with and cling to daily.  I am certainly not perfect.

I have adult sized tantrums where I yell about toy clutter or laundry hidden under beds. 
I hide in the bathroom for a moment of silence more times than I'd like to admit. 
I sigh over sticky floors from spilled orange juice. 
Sometimes I eagerly countdown the minutes to bedtime. 

There are the not-so-good days like I wrote about here. They may not be my most shining days but I know that I have so many others to make up for it.

These happier moments that I mostly write about in my blog. 

The inspiring moments. The lasting ones.

I hope my blogging stays authentic to who I am and who we are as a family. I practice gratitude and know that I have so much to be happy for.

Even if that means having to dig through a mess to truly see it.